It's the festive season, and the day where Jesus was born over 2000 years ago! So it's the day to celebrate his birth with a big feast such as turkeys!

First present, thanks Auntie Serene! 

 My community (AMPlify!) happened to have a Christmas party from 1-6am every year on this day and this was my first time attending it. Before setting out for the night, I was in a dilemma on what to wear and after much thoughts, I decided to don a suit with bow-tie looking like a real gentleman *giggles*.

First, I went over to Sandra's house for Christmas dinner. There were the usual Christmas dishes such as turkey, ham and roast beef (yummy!). They were heaven and the black pepper sauce for the roast beef was too spicy for my tongue to tolerate as spiciness isn't a good pal of mine. We followed up with exchanging presents after dinner and my first presents came to me soon after, as someone over 20 I could care less about Christmas presents but as a child, I enjoyed it regardless of what I received and one of my favourites were the crackers given to me by my grandparents bought from the US.

We then headed for midnight mass at Nativity which is located opposite our community and rendezvous with the others. Mass began exactly at 12 midnight and after mass, we headed for the party. There were food and beverages such as ham and once again I'm having it. The night was a joyous occasion having fellowship with the others, playing games together and most importantly was the time we spent together because happy people keeps the environment happy.

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and a happy new year, one more week and it's a fresh new year!

Before I begin sharing my long testimony, I would like to thank the Lord for His unending love and not giving up on me because without Him, I would have been a nowhere boy.

Now where do I begin hmm… OH YES, before my experience with God in Awaken 5. I was never a devout let alone a practicing Roman Catholic and the fact that I totally gave up on my faith and vowed to never serve God or go to church for a period of time. I used to blame God for a broken family and not having that one person around to call ‘Daddy’ because if He loves me, these wouldn’t have happened. Adding on to the fact that I skipped mass on a regular basis during my catechism days, just attending class and “Adios I’m out of here”. When I was confirmed in 2008, life went on as per normal and was glad that 10 years of catechism has finally come to an end.

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. ~ Psalm 13:5

 

A lost child

The year 2009 came which I believe was the lowest point in my life, it was the year that I sat for my GCE O’ levels examination. Losing someone close to me in the family was painful, it affected my mood throughout the entire year and my studies, causing poor results. I totally gave up trusting in Him and hated the faith overall to the point of cursing the church. However, for unknown reasons I chose to continue wearing the pendant with a crucifix hung on it which I have been wearing since my early days in secondary school. Receiving my O level results was almost the final nail into the coffin, as it was a promise I made but wasn’t accomplished. After which I totally gave up on life and chose suicide to end the pain. But something or someone snapped me out of it, it just felt real even though I was alone at the time. It was pretty unexplainable how that after more than 6 months of grief and depression, that I felt happier and more peaceful after that incident and life started to improve bit by bit for me. That had to be the beginning of walking on the path of light back to Him.

National Service and experience with the Adversary

Then came the time which every Singaporean male must face once in their lifetime. I was enlisted on June 4 2010 not knowing of the challenges and obstacles that lie ahead of me. One night after lights out, I had a nightmare (During my trainee days to be a Signal Operator). When my eyes opened, something or someone was staring at me, the bunk was pitched black and all I could see was a black figure with horns. It started muttering in a foreign language and was odd that I completely understood what it said. I was frightened after hearing it say “Come to me, come to me” and mentioned something about Jesus in a demonic and furious tone. Moments later after waking up, I felt completely scared and shaken, not daring to open my eyes as it felt so real, the bunk, the bed everything! I just couldn’t go back to sleep, fearing that the same dream may occur again. At that point of time, I remembered the crucifix that was hanging around my neck and immediately grabbed the cross tightly saying “God if you are real and if YOU love me, then be at my side because I’m scared”. Immediately, I went back to sleep and everything went as per usual in the morning feeling relieved that my fears were gone.

 

God has indeed protected me from the Devil

This experience was the turning point of me trusting in Him slowly, but not surely because during lunch one the days, my fellow NS mate saw my pendant and asked if I was a religious person, which I immediately shrugged off saying in a cocky manner, “Oh I’m just wearing it for fun”. Oh Silly Ryan…

 

 Returning back to Church

The year 2012 came, and I couldn’t wait to shout “ORD LO!!!” on June 3 *chuckles*. It was also the year I finally returned to church and after everything I said earlier in my life, I just couldn’t believe it. It all happened one fine Sunday morning in March, being the usual lazy person lazing around in bed. To my amazement, I woke up early and something was different this time, I was itching to attend mass on that day and actually went. As time passed, I wanted to serve in a ministry and decided to serve in my parish, Holy Family. Indeed a sign from God that He hasn't forsaken me.

Church of the Holy Family, my parish

 

Awaken 5

My parish was advertising the retreat which took place in June that year. I was initially reluctant to go, but the encouragement and motivation from my seniors made me decide to go for it since I have been wanting to begin a new relationship with God, this also marked my first time attending a church retreat. On the first day, upon entering the compound, the service team members greeted me with huge and wide smiles and energetic voices (Still remembered Alex serving me juice ). During the first P&W song, while most of the participants felt awkward, I just had the urge to raise my hands to surrender (not being boastful lol).

I was placed in the group Goodness with 8 other awesome possum participants along with 2 powerful and inspiring facilitators, Isaac and Ethelyn. Over the 4 days, our bond grew deeper and the sharing got more intense as each session passed. Hearing Fr. William Goh talks were inspirational and found it meaningful, though I fell asleep most of the time *khekhekhe*. It amazed me how that over a short period of 4 days, many participants lives were changed, including mine. From all the awkwardness and silence among the groups to jumping around being a fool for God and being brothers and sisters in Christ. God was so real and I could feel His presence throughout the entire retreat. Confessing my sins made me feel delighted and lighter as the weight of sins that stuck on me for years had finally been removed. He was always at my side, just that he was doing his work on me and waiting for the perfect opportunity to give the positives, like what Don Marcus said, “When Jesus says NO, he doesn’t mean no but Next Opportunity”. In life everyone will face a time of hardship even if you’re rich because that makes us a stronger person in my opinion.

God truly does good and is good, my breakthrough has finally come and I have a great interest to serve in the Amplify community under the Hospitality sub-team, something which I first said that I will never do. Once again, I would like to thank God for giving me a community to serve Him in along with other youths seeking for Him which is truly a privilege and, my facils for giving us the strength and courage.

Awakened at last, Awaken 5 2012

One of if not, the most influential band ever

My friends know me for being a Beatlemaniac or a hardcore fan of The Beatles, a Rock band from the 60′s, but little do they know why I love these 4 boys from Liverpool (Bottom to top, left to right: John Lennon, Paul McCartney, George Harrison, Ringo Starr) and looking up to 

 them when they aren’t from my era.  

I am a huge fan for over 15 years and still on-going.





 

How it all started?

Being a 90′s child listening to musicians in their heydays such as Westlife, Fool’s Garden and, Celine Dion, there is this band whose tune caught my ears and asked myself questions such as "Why does this sound different?", and that band is The Beatles. 

I recalled the first song that I heard from them was “Hey Jude” at the age of 5, played on a Vinyl by my late grandmother who happened to be a huge fan too and a bonus for her to be around (in her 20's) when they were an active band. After listening to the lyrics, I realised how much that song related to me and in a way gave me words of encouragement.

From that point on, I had to know who these guys were and after finding out that they were no longer an active band since 1970, I thought of them to be "historical" and that something was wrong listening to a band 30 years before I was born.

The growing stage of a young Beatlemaniac

Sometime later when I heard another song called “I Want to Hold Your Hand”, it totally struck my head this time and got into the music without any valid explanation. It’s style sounded unique and new to me, something that other bands aren’t able to mimic or beat.

I’ve been told the things that they did when they first started out were fresh and something that no one has ever heard before, nothing artists such as Elvis Presley or Frank Sinatra have ever done before, including their trademark haircut which at the time was considered ridiculous as it wasn’t normal for boys to been seen with long hair.

Watching them perform for the first time

Finally I was able to see The Beatles perform and how they actually looked like after a few months having heard of them. The first performance I watched was The Beatles on The Ed Sullivan show, their first concert when they arrived in America for the first time on February 9, 1964 and that gave them international stardom as their popularity was imminent.

Performing on The Ed Sullivan Show

There they appeared, I was surprised to see them dressed up in identical suits wearing a bowl-cut they called “Mop-top”. They kicked off with “All My Loving”, performed by McCartney and I shouted to myself in my head saying, “Bloody hell, this sound is outrageous!!!”. At the end, all four members took their synchronized customary bow to the audience present. (Indeed a huge show of respect to the fans)

 

 

I have officially become a die-hard fan

Throughout my time in kindergarten, I have always asked my mum to bring me to a barber to get a Beatles haircut on a regular basis and boy do I look cute *chuckles*. As I grew, more songs got into my head. It started off with their early songs like “Please Please Me”, “Twist and Shout”, “Help!”, “A Hard Day’s Night” and then to their later songs like “Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band”, “Yellow Submarine”, “Here Comes the Sun”, “Let it Be”.

Their later songs indeed sound a lot different compared to their early ‘bubbly’ songs and to my shock and horror, their appearance matured along with their music. Gone were their suits and mop-top haircuts, they eventually started growing beards with a complete wardrobe change. (Lennon wearing granny glasses?!) That explains the reason they were and are still named one of the most influential and successful bands. In a short span of 7 years (1963-1970) their style of music changed with all the experiments they did in the studio. From ‘A Hard Day’s Night’ to ‘Come Together’ in less than 5 years was totally "WOW".

As time passed, I got hooked on to their music and just couldn’t bite the dust, talking about them, collecting albums and accessories to name a few. I am now a self-proclaimed Beatlemaniac. It was thanks to them that I started picking up the guitar and other musical instruments. But it wasn't until 2009 that I finally got a taste of the guitar and the first song attempted was “I Want to Hold Your Hand”, yup I said it. :P

It took me a year and Ka-da-boom I’ve finally acquired an Epiphone Casino electric guitar which was famously used by Lennon and that guitar has been in a "never-able-to-let go relationship" with me ever since.

 

Imagine One Direction changing their appearance like The Beatles did? LOL

To sum it all, I LOVE The Beatles

Here comes the conclusion. For over 15 years I’ve never grown tired of listening to them and have always wanted to play like them. I’m glad to have friends who, like me are huge fans and I love to Come Together and talk to them about The Fab Four. Not forgetting my idol whom was from this band, and he is John Lennon. I believe in him when he said to Give Peace a Chance.

(1940-1980) Gone but never forgotten